KAYO Cafe

KAYO Café ini terletak di Tampin, berdekatan dengan Lorong Art. Sepanjang perjalanan menuju ke sini, kita akan disambut oleh pelbagai lukisan di dinding, menambahkan lagi suasana artistik di kawasan ini. Seriously memang mendamaikan dengan lukisan mural yang klasik. 

Ohh BTW, apologies for not snapping any photos as I was just too hungry at the time!

Walau bagaimanapun, suasana di cafe ini memang menyegarkan, lengkap dengan dekorasi yang menarik dan suasana yang tenang. Menu di sini cukup pelbagai, menawarkan hidangan seperti pizza, nasi lemak, dan lain-lain. For anyone looking for a unique dining spot in Tampin, KAYO Café is definitely worth a visit.

Sebelum terlupa, perkenalkan the real owner of KAYO Cafe, Mr Blackie in a tuxedo.

And actually, we planned to take photos of the food we ordered, but before we even got a chance to arrange everything on the table, my nephew suddenly threw up. Probably had a bit too much chocolate drink! Luckily, none of it got on the food. Haha, so we were a bit thrown off and just started eating right away instead of taking pictures!

Sampai jumpa lagi,

' Ain

Humblebragging

Hello again..

Today, I learned a new term: "humblebragging." It's the act of hiding pride or showing off behind words that appear modest- Tindakan menyembunyikan perasaan bangga atau menunjuk nunjuk di sebalik kata kata yang kelihatan merendah diri

Let me give it a try.

"Hmmm... it’s such a waste having a house this big. So beautiful, but no one even comes over... atau.. emm aku ni suri rumah je walau ada Master. Eh penat lah ambik MBA dulu mahal mahal..hahaha, humble bragging done! Korang lak camne?

Chow..

On Differences and Silent Acceptance

Hello Again.

A quick note from me today..

Sometimes, have you ever wondered why someone might have different interests? Sometimes we feel puzzled by differing opinions, and their priorities can be very different from ours. 

We might place something as our last priority, while for them, it’s the first. Sometimes, without compassion, we question our discomfort with them.

But are we aware that they, too, are different due to their unique fate? Just as they don’t question the destiny they’ve been given, perhaps it’s better for us to simply remain silent.

Bye..

Kisah aku di Family Mart: Menyelami Rindu yang Tersembunyi

A Cradle That Never Held My Baby

Semalam… aku singgah di Family Mart Jelatang. Dalam kekalutan mencari barang, aku tidak sengaja melanggar bahu seseorang. Dia menoleh ke arahku dengan raut marah. Aku segera mengucapkan maaf sambil tersenyum, namun dia hanya merengus sambil mengusap perutnya yang membesar, suaminya di sebelah turut memandangku dengan tatapan seolah-olah aku adalah pesalah. Aku tahu dia sedang mengandung, tetapi sikapnya begitu kasar.

Hati ini terasa hancur melihatnya. Andai anakku masih ada di dalam rahimku hari ini, perutku pasti sudah membesar seperti itu juga, menunggu hari. Dan sudah tentu, bayi ku akan lahir pada bulan Oktober ini…

Rasa sakit ini semakin menyakitkan. Kenapa dia perlu mencebik seolah-olah aku patut merasa bersalah? Seharusnya, sebagai bakal ibu, dia sepatutnya berasa bahagia sama seperti aku pernah merasakan kehadiran seseorang di dalam rahimku. Entah mengapa, wajahnya yang mencebik marah itu membuatkan hati ini semakin terluka. Tapi aku doakan kau baik-baik saja, wahai bakal ibu. Aku mungkin tidak pernah merasai saiz perutku membesar seperti itu, kerana kedua anakku pergi sebelum sempat aku memeluk mereka. Jarinya terlalu halus untuk kulihat dan belahan tangannya terlalu kecil. Perutku mungkin tidak besar untuk kuusap, tetapi aku ikhlas mendoakanmu, ibu. Semoga kau selamat dan baik-baik sahaja.

Hari ini, aku menangis sepuasnya. Baru kini aku sedar, aku belum benar-benar menangisi anak syurga ku yang kedua. Kerana semua orang menyuruhku sabar, tabah, dan redha. Kamu semua menyuruhku melepaskan dia dengan hati yang terbuka dan tidak meratapi pemergiannya. Namun, aku belum sempat menangis. Aku belum sempat merintih dan merindui kehadiranmu, sayang. Maafkan mummy… Insya-Allah, tunggu kami di syurga ya. Kedua-dua kamu sangat nakal, membuat mummy dan daddy berharap tetapi tidak pernah muncul di dunia ini. Maafkan mummy kerana tidak pernah menangisi pemergianmu. Mummy fikir mummy cukup kuat untuk tidak menumpahkan setitik pun air mata, tetapi sebenarnya, mummy juga seorang wanita yang lemah. Dan hari ini, air mata ini adalah untukmu.

Kepada semua… aku tahu aku belum benar-benar merasai beratnya ujian menjadi ibu dan bapa. Aku mungkin tidak tahu bagaimana menguruskan mereka kerana mereka pergi ketika aku sedang bersiap untuk menyambut mereka ke dunia. Ya, aku tidak tahu bagaimana membesarkan anak, menggunakan ilmu parenting, atau merawat mereka ketika sakit. Aku tidak pasti bagaimana rasanya melihat anak membesar.

Namun, satu perkara yang pasti, aku benar-benar memahami rasa kehilangan anak. Aku tahu bagaimana rasanya melihat anakku tidak bernyawa dan tidak bergerak dalam rahimku. Aku merasai setiap detik ketika menyaksikan anakku dimandikan dan dikuburkan. Aku juga tahu betapa pedihnya ingin menyentuh jasad mereka, namun merasa gentar kerana mereka terlalu kecil untuk kupegang, takut jika aku akan menyakiti tubuh kecil itu. Aku hanya mahu mereka sentiasa dalam keadaan sempurna di dalam kubur kecil itu.

Dan aku tahu, mungkin ada yang berkata… aku hanya melihat mereka pergi sebelum sempat hidup di dunia ini. Kamu mungkin akan berkata ibu yang kehilangan anak yang sudah dibesarkan itu lebih hebat, lalu kau katakan aku tidak layak untuk meratapi kehilangan ini? Tidak layak untuk menangis kerana tidak pernah melihat mereka hidup? Tahukah kamu betapa sedihnya aku kerana tidak tahu bagaimana wajah mereka seandainya mereka lahir? Bagaimana suara mereka jika mereka menangis, kerana mereka tidak pernah menangis… Betapa sukarnya merindukan mereka kerana aku hanya mampu mengingati rasa hadirnya mereka berada di dalam rahimku, tanpa wajah yang boleh diingati, tanpa suara yang boleh kukenangi.

Kesedihan ini tidak pernah berhenti, kerana apa yang hilang dariku adalah bukan sekadar sebuah kehidupan, tetapi sebuah harapan, sebuah cinta yang tidak pernah sempat kusentuh. Dan di sebalik semua itu, aku hanya berdoa agar mereka tenang di sana, dan aku akan terus mencintai mereka, walau di manapun mereka berada.

With a heart full of memories,

' Ain

Introducing a New Voice: Izzairin Zulkaflee

Hi There,

It’s been a while since I last blogged about other bloggers. I still remember how 10 years ago we used to make posts about our blogger friends, especially to introduce new bloggers who joined our community kan? So today I nak introduce sahabat I yang baru sahaja membuat posting pertamanya pada minggu lepas. Alhamdulillah masih lagi ada kawan kawan baru yang nak berblog. Untuk pengetahuan you all, she was the one who encouraged me untuk meneruskan dunia blogging ni to share my thoughts and feelings. Especially pada ketika itu I baru sahaja dilanda musibah dan very depressed. Dan kerana itu lah my first posting here, tentang kehilangan anak syurga I, Khadeeja setelah sekian lama I stop untuk membuat entry. Thanks Izzairin.

By the way, kawan I ni very talented in writing poetry.  Di dalam IG beliau, penuh kata kata indah hasil karya beliau. Seriously bakat beliau memang hebat. Jadi kerana itu terpanggil I untuk memberikan cadangan  kepada beliau untuk mengumpul kesemua puisi beliau di dalam blog. Lebih mudah untuk melihat hasil tulisan beliau yang sangat indah. It would be a shame to let such talent go unnoticed. At the very least,  bila beliau melihat karyanya tersusun elok di dalam platform blogger ini, it will surely akan memberikan inspirasi buat beliau berkarya hebat lagi. So, I am proudly introducing my friend’s blog:

https://izzairinzulkaflee.blogspot.com/

Dan dengan rendah hati, saya memohon sahabat sahabat blogger I yang di kasihi untuk follow blog beliau and offer words of encouragement so she continues to create wonderful work.

Till we meet again,

' Ain

Herbal Aromatherapy inhaler stick - Sunnahloka (Version Deep Sleep)

Hello, wonderful people!😍

Today I nak share my experience using the herbal inhaler stick from Sunnahloka. Previously, I mentioned that I couldn’t give any feedback on the product because I was already sleeping well and couldn’t provide a proper review. You can check out the previous post here . Tapi I sekarang sudah pun guna almost 2 weeks now. What I can say that this product sangatlah function teruk kat I. I’ll tell you about this “Deep Sleep”. Apa yang I noticed ialah:

1. Ada satu malam ni, which was last night, I rasa dah start nak kena imsonia. Lepastu, my husband pun gave me the “Deep Sleep” inhaler, and surprisingly, I was able to fall asleep. I pun tak tau berapa lama I ambil masa untuk tidur kerana ianya sangat sangat cepat. Tak sempat pun nak kira kambing biri biri melintas pagar tu.

2. Selalunya bila I tidur,  I often wake up in the middle of the night and need to go to the toilet. I memang tak boleh nak elak, otherwise, I have trouble falling back asleep. Tapi bila I dah pergi toilet and buang air, dia akan buat tidur I tergangu dan boleh menyebabkan I tak dapat tidur dan rehat yang cukup. I end up feeling like I haven’t slept enough. However, ever since I started using this inhaler, especially the “Deep Sleep” one, tau tau nak Subuh dah.

Oh, and I just found out that this product is from Fatin Nabila, who was once viral dulu dekat tiktok yang antara video dia pernah dikecam oleh natizen akibat cara penyampaiannya yang tak bersesuaian,  but she has since apologised. One of her TikTok videos ada juga beritahu yang she experienced anxiety disorder, which led her to create this product. Kudos to her. This product is really helpful. You can check out her TikTok here.

Until next time, keep smiling!

' Ain

I pernah kena fitnah dengan bomoh

Cerita pasal fitnah bomoh ni, teringat dulu ex BF pernah tuduh I bomohkaan dia dan isteri dia. Kisahnya ex BF I ni bercinta dengan I adalah dalam 3 tahun kot. Taklah lama sangat.. Cuma membazir jugaklah masa tu sebab masa kami start couple umur sangat sangat muda. Bila fikir balik, banyak benda lagi berfaedah boleh buat selain bercinta.

Anyway, we broke up because he found his future wife. Maybe I wasn’t what he was looking for, so we ended things on decent terms. I takde pun serang serang dia ke, serang bakal wife dia ke. Cuma of courselah I ada juga menangis kat bucu katil  huhuhu.. masa tengok gambar wedding dia. Tapi masa tu sedihnya  kejap je and I dapat move on dengan berjayanya.

Fast forward 10 years, and he was in the middle of a divorce with his wife. Well, benda benda gossip macam ni.. akan ada je seseorang akan sampaikan kat kita. Sebab I masih belum kawin lagi masa tu. Maybe I terlalu berhati hati. Tapi masa tu pun I dah ada pasangan dah and nak prepare untuk kawin pun. Out of the blue, my ex sends me a message on Facebook:

Ex BF: "Sudah sudahlah tu buat benda khurafat. Apa yang awak dah buat dekat abang dan isteri sampai bercerai. Berdosa Besar”. Bla bla bla..

I macam blur je masa tu. Tapi I replied:

Me: "kalau I nak bomoh mestilah 10 tahun dulu. Ni bukan kene bomoh ni, hati kau yang dah berubah lah kat bini kau".

And cerita tu sampai situ je. Sebab I macam menyampah dengan that situation. But I sampai harini even dah bersuami pun masih disturbed dengan tuduhan tu. Kadang kadang teringat balik, I rasa macam nak je sumpah dia macam macam. Sebab I rasa unfair sangat. Dahlah dia tak pernah minta maaf buat I heart broken lepastu gi tuduh I bomoh kan dia pulak. Padahal dia yang nak bercerai. Kenapa I pula di salahkan .Geli pun ada sbb cerita pasal 10 tahun dulu. Dahlah masa dia tuduh tu I macam dah move on lama. Plus, I have no reason to be jealous; I’m happily with someone better now.

Tapi itulah I syak lepas dia dan wife dalam proses nak bercerai tu ada pergi bomoh and tengok kenapa bercerai kot.And mesti bomoh tu fitnah I . Hahaha. Whatever, Allah knows best. Cuma Bila I baca kes Arwah Zulfarhan baru baru ni, teringat kes I ni.

All because of a so-called BOMOH!

Refleksi Hari Merdeka

 

Kemerdekaan Malaysia dan Personal Growth

Hari ni ialah Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia yang ke 67 tahun. I realise that this year, my mom is also turning the same age. And when I look at my mom, I realise that Malaysia, too, has matured and grown older. But is Malaysia truly maturing? Dan ketika kita menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan today, this is actually the perfect time for all of us to reflect achievement negara kita dan juga ourselves. Hari Merdeka ialah simbol kebebasan, perpaduan, dan juga kebanggaan negara. Sambil I merenung perjalanan Malaysia menuju kemerdekaan dan kedaulatan, I terreflect my journey menuju kedewasaan pula, what I have been through dan bagaimana ia saling berkaitan dengan makna Merdeka itu sendiri.

Perjalanan Malaysia Menuju Kemerdekaan

Masa kita belajar Sejarah em.. masa sekolah rendah dan menengah, kita sedar bahawa perjalanan negara kita, Malaysia untuk mencapai kemerdekaan adalah dengan bukti semangat dan juga ketabahan rakyat Malaysia itu sendiri. Pada 31 Ogos 1957, Malaysia, which is sebelum ni dikenali Malaya, mencapai kebebasan dari pemerintahan kolonial British.Of course I dengar macam macam cerita dari nenek I. Bagaimana dari zaman penjajahan Jepun sehinggalah British. Bagaimana nenek I rasa makan ubi bakar dalam tanah, menyorok dalam perigi buta dan lubang buatan..Bagaimana nenek tiada peluang untuk pergi ke sekolah and that the reason kalau cakap pasal kerajaan dan kemerdekaan negara, nenek lebih hebat menunjukkan kesetiaan terhadap negara. I can see it from her eyes.

Hari bersejarah ini menandakan permulaan era baru, penuh dengan peluang dan cabaran. Perayaan kebangsaan mencerminkan keunikan budaya negara, kemajuan, dan cita-cita bersama rakyatnya yang majmuk.

Bagi I, Hari Merdeka bukan setakat tentang memperingati peristiwa sejarah, tapi ia adalah perayaan identiti Malaysia yang unik, gabungan harmoni masyarakat pelbagai kaum, dan perjalanan berterusan untuk mencapai matlamat nasional. Hari ini sekiranya tiada diisi dengan perarakan yang meriah macam dulu dulu pun, tapi seharusnya lagu-lagu patriotik, harus dimainkan bagi mengukuhkan nilai-nilai perpaduan dan kenegaraan. Mestilah kena dengar lagu-lagu seperti Saya Anak Malaysia, Warisan, Bahtera Merdeka dan semestinya Tanggal 31 Ogos dan banyak lagi lagu lagu patriotik yang kita harus dengar. Just to let you know, I’m now enjoying ‘Bahtera Merdeka’ by Aishah.

My Merdeka: Perjalanan Kematangan I

Sejujurnya, in my personal opinion, tentang Hari Merdeka  has a special meaning, especially when I reflect on my own journey. Just like perjalanan Malaysia untuk mencapai kemerdekaan yang involved bagaimana nak mengatasi cabaran belum lagi dengan segala kemungkinan-kemungkinan yang akan berlaku, and my journey of life pun berkisar pada mencapai kebebasan dan my own self- improvement. I remember bagaimana I nak dapat Master Degree, I hanya lah pemegang Diploma yang sangat-sangat lama ok? I tak dapat naik pangkat, naik gaji it just because I ada Diploma je. This drove me to achieve my goals. It was only in my early 30s that I resumed my degree and Master's studies. I pun sendiri terperanjat sebab my result semua cemerlang. Alhamdulillah. Sedangkan masa mula mula I nak ambil Degree, after a long break from studying, my mom ada lah menimbulkan kerisauan dia kat my sister. Dia takut I might struggle and give up. My sister of course bagitau I. That moment, I rasa tercabar sangat and I will make sure all my result cemerlang. Dan Alhamdulillah, my results were indeed quite commendable.

Menggalas Tanggungjawab

For me, kematangan mestilah bermula dengan deeper understanding of responsibility. Sama seperti negara kita, perlu mengurus pemerintahan yang penuh complex ni, dan keperluan masyarakat yang macam macam ragam, tak sebut lagi pergaduhan politik yang buat I muak. I can relate dengan my personal maturity, of course ianya melibatkan untuk menggalas tanggungjawab terhadap tindakan dan keputusan kita. In whatever keadaan, kita kene ambil tanggungjawab tu  samada dalam kerjaya kita, hubungan, ataupun personal goals kita. Seperti negara yang membuat pilihan yang bijaksana dan bertanggungjawab atas hasilnya, yang mencerminkan tanggungjawab lebih luas yang dimiliki oleh sebuah negara terhadap rakyatnya, kita. Macam tu juga dengan kita. We choose our path. Kita memilih perkahwinan ini, jalan ini, hidup ini, kerjaya ini. Dan kita mesti mengambil tanggungjawab terhadap pilihan-pilihan ini. Whatever challenges we face, we must take responsibility.

Memahami dan Menghormati Kepelbagaian

Malaysia ni mempunya rakyat berbilang kaum dan seharusnya aspek penting lain dalam pertumbuhan adalah untuk mempelajari, untuk menghargai dan juga menghormati diversity. Kekuatan Malaysia terletak pada kepelbagaian penduduknya, dan I realise that the personal growth melibatkan prinsip yang sama. Embracing different perspectives and experiences memang membantu my understanding and empathy, making me more open and adaptable in various aspects of life. I think about how, memula I berkahwin dengan my husband, seriously banyak je ketidaksamaan tu. Of course ianya berbeza. Dia dilahirkan dan dibesarkan dari keluarga yang berbeza dengan I. Kalau dia suka makan cencaluk tapi I pula suka makan petai dan buah binjai. Tapi tulah.. sekarang ni husband I yang suka makan binjai jeruk even more than I do! Dari ketidaksamaan membawa kepada banyak persamaan. We adapt to each other’s lives.

Merayakan Pencapaian dan Belajar dari Kegagalan

Sama seperti Hari Merdeka adalah masa untuk meraikan pencapaian Malaysia especially masa diorang bersatu padu untuk menentang penjajah,we should also recognize and celebrate the challenges they faced., Yes, it is an achievement worth celebrating.. That’s why, I never judge pun kalau nak diadakan perayaan sambutan merdeka. Asalkan ianya tidak keterlaluan sehingga menyumbang kepada kemaksiatan.

Pandang ke Hadapan

Malaysia sekarang terus berkembang dan maju. Dari negara pertanian sehinggalah sekarang negara yang maju dan berkembang pesat. Begitu juga myself. Hahah.. dari berat 45 kg pun maju naik angkanya sehingga nak melebihi 60 kg. Jadi sempena hari kemerdekaan ini, I ambil spirit of independence, unity, and progress to guide my own life. Personal improvement is an ongoing process that requires introspection, learning, and adaptation.

Last but not least, please ignore my 'Bahasa Rojak.' The important thing is that the meaning gets across. This is not a language competition but just an expression of my thoughts in a style I’m comfortable with.

Selamat Hari Merdeka kepada semua rakyat Malaysia! Semoga kita semua terus maju jaya, I love you Malaysia. 

' Ain

Herbal Aromatherapy inhaler stick - Sunnahloka

Hi There,

Recently, I've been suffering from insomnia. Sampai satu minggu I tak boleh tidur. My husband dah risau. At that time husband I takut I kene ganguan dengan makhluk halus. After all, benda macam ni pun berkemungkinan juga kan. Lebih lebih lagi sebelum tu, I ada duduk kat luar masa azan Maghrib. Manalah tau, ada benda benda yang tak baik mengikut. Jadi, husband pun bagitau dengan my in laws. Malam tu jugak diorang bawak ustaz datang rumah I. 

Tapi lepas Ustaz scan I, Ustaz pun tak jumpa apa apa yang pelik. It means, nothing yang gangu I. Ustaz kata maybe I ni lonely.  hahahhahah. Lonely in what way?? Whatever lah. 

So dah macam macam cara I dan husband cuba untuk I boleh tidur. Termasuklah applying  magnesium oil kat kaki, taking melatonin gummies,  hoping they would help me sleep. Oh lupa nak mention yang I also tried the military sleep method tu and it worked. You can Google it to find out how to do the exercise. Tapi I noticed, selain dari that tip, I ada juga pindah tempat tidur. I don't know the connection, but it help me sleep. which is nyenyak sangat.

And today I want to share what my husband bought for me. I really love it. Tapi I tak boleh nak review lah samada ianya bantu I tidur atau tak sebab masa product ni sampai, I memang dah boleh tidur. However, what I can say is that ianya sangat memberikan ketenangan. I suka gila.

Here’s the product that my husband bought. Actually, there are several flavors. You can check out the picture I posted below. Product from Sunnahloka. Dia macam inhaler brand vics tu cuma yang ini infused dengan essential oil and ada bidara extract.  Baunya pun sedap dan tenang je. 

With Love.

' Ain

My RM50 Haul from Jalan Jalan Japan!

Hi There,

Today I want to share some random stuff I bought from Jalan Jalan Japan. Tapi kan I rasa merepek lepas balik rumah. Benda merepek yang awalnya I rasa sangat lah berbaloi. Kenapa berbaloi? Percaya tak yang I boleh dapat 8 barang dengan RM50.  So let’s see what I bought.

1. Beg ni harganya RM5. plannya nak isi telekung . I beli sebab dia ada lace dan ribbon. I sejenis yang girlie macam tu ye. But once I got home, I haven’t decided what to use it for yet.

2. Bakul ni I beli RM 6. Ni I dah jadikan tempat I letak Al-Quran dan tasbih semua. It has its function. But then I thought that baskets from DIY stores are cheaper and prettier. This basket is literally just an empty basket with no brand.

3. The moment I nampak je I terus suka. I suka design bunga bunga kecil macam ni. Harga nya RM 2 je. So cheap. I just haven’t decided what else to do with this beg bunjut ni

4. I suka sebab konon konon nanti nak pergi pantai nak bawa barang dalam ni. ala ala beach bag lah camtu. Cuma  tadi I dah masukkan barang make up I. I memang tak sabar. Harganya ialah RM6.

5. Another beg bunjut RM3 that I haven’t decided what to do with yet.

6. Ni I suka sebab ada bunga kecil juga. And memang masih baru lagi.

When I got home, I realized it’s from Uniqlo Paris. The price was unbelievable—RM2. It’s clean, new, and the bag is quite functional. But I’m still hanging it up because I don’t know what to do with it. I banyak gila beg. 

7. I beli beg ni. Tak tau jenis apa. Trust me, it looks ordinary in the picture, but it’s actually beautiful and very spacious up close. I plan nak letak all my journal and planner dalam ni. I tried it earlier, but I’m not sure yet. It was RM15.

8. What’s this called, a shawl? I beli sebab dia brand Ralph Lauren. Tak tau lah authentic ke tak. Harga RM 10. Balik rumah try nak jadikan alas meja tak cantik pulak. So ni pun masih di dalam discussion kat dalam my mind. Apa I nak buat dengan dia ni !!!!!

That’s all the stuff I bought today. I’m really happy to have gotten so many things at such a low price. However, I still haven’t decided what else to do with all these items. I just bought them first. tapi husband I cakap. " Its ok sayang. yang penting happy". Hehe..

Sehingga kita berjumpa lagi ye..

With Love,

' Ain

Subway - boycott ke tak eh?

 Hi,

Saja nak share, Btw, I ada share dekat thread jugak tapi still nak post sini. Kisah pasal boycotting. Pengalaman yang tidak dapat dilupakan jugak lah.

I once got scolded by sorang makcik ni at Petronas station near Sungai Besi. At that time, I was extremely hungry and the boycott was still new. Dah lah baru je balik kerja dan nak travel back to Melaka pulak. So, we ended up eating at Subway. Bukan sebab tak nak boycott tau. At that time we were just really hungry, all the other places were full, and we needed to eat something to take our medicine. (masa tu dah melebihi timing pun). Actually I dan husband kene makan supplement and medicine for TTC.

And masa tu, we were still getting used to the boycott and completely forgot about it. When the auntie scolded us and pointed at the Subway brand ( yang terpampang besar tulisan SUBWAY dekat dinding restoran), I looked at my husband and asked, “Wait, are we supposed to boycott Subway?”

My husband then only started to realize, “Oh, right, the boycott lahh..” We were really clueless and had no intention of breaking the boycott. Honestly, we lost our appetite at that moment. Terus bungkus makan dalam kereta. Memang lupa sangat like memang honest mistake. Rasa menyesal sangat dan malu pun ada. selamba badak je duduk berdua macam orang lupa diri dalam tu. Dah lah restoran tu dindingnya kaca. Semua orang nampak ... Patut lah kitorang je couple dalam tu. Allahu.

' Ain

Review K-Drama - Through the Darkness

Hi Everyone,

Today, I want to share a Korean drama that I just finished watching. The title of the show is "Through the Darkness." This drama is based on a true story and features actors like Kim Nam Gil, Kim So-jin, Jin Seon-kyu, and Ryeoun.

It starts in the 1990s, when the people of Seoul were struck with extreme fear due to a series of brutal attacks and murders. A very mysterious figure known as "Red Cap" would stalk women on the streets, follow them home, and then kill them viciously. This killer also acted randomly, making it very difficult for the detectives investigating the case to predict what was on his mind.

Then, they realized that the American FBI had been successful with the use of criminal profilers to identify such criminals, especially serial killers. So, the head of the team, Gook Young Soo, recruits Song Ha Young, a calm, reserved, and very meticulous former detective for his team. Gook believes that using this new psychological method will give the police an edge in capturing ‘Red Cap’ and ending his killing spree.

However, homicide expert Yoon Tae Goo and her officers doubt the value of this approach and are reluctant to collaborate. The question now is whether Song Ha Young can gain the trust of these ruthless criminals while seeing through them. Is he clever enough to outwit them? But more importantly, does he have the emotional resilience to endure the process? I don't want to give too many spoilers, so you’ll have to watch the drama to find out.

Personally, I liked and was impressed by Nam Gil’s portrayal of the criminal profiler, where he almost went insane and nearly gave up due to delving too deeply into the mind of a criminal.

Here are some lessons I took from the approach to dealing with criminals:

1. Women, no matter how strong they are, can be very vulnerable. And when a serial killer or rapist is intent on committing their crime, even a young and small person can still be a victim.

2. Don’t trust strangers. Criminals often have innocent faces.

3. Lock your windows. In the show, the killer always targeted windows because it's something we often overlook.

4. Protect your young children. Many criminals come from troubled family backgrounds. Some of them have been severely abused by their parents.

My Third Shot - apply lecturer Uitm

 Hi There,

Alhamdulillah. I am back to normal now. I’m feeling tired from everything that has happened recently. It’s been a challenging time, and I must admit I feel a bit demotivated by the ongoing difficulties. However, life mestilah continue dan kene terus kehadapan.

Just nak update yang I’ve applied for the lecturer position at UiTM again... and this is my third attempt ye. Ianya sangat competitive and challenging to secure a spot tau. This time around, I kena purchase a PIN number, which I hope kali ni diorang boleh indicates  yang mana genuinely interested dari who are just nak test market sahaja.

I’ve heard that many applicants attend interviews just to see what the process is like but end up declining the offer if they’re selected. Sedih sangat to think that some might be applying without real intent. Tetapi takpe..I remain hopeful that this extra step will help in finding the right candidate and will improve my chances this time.

It’s a reminder that persistence is key, and each attempt brings me closer to my goal. I’m trying to stay positive and focused on my aspirations, knowing that every experience contributes to my growth.

Until Next Time,

' Ain

Housewife Reality Check

Hi There, 

So, I've been doing a lot of soul-searching lately and wanted to share where I’m at. Back in January, I decided to leave my job at BIMB Investment to focus on being a housewife. My goal was to be the best wife and mother I could be. However, Allah’s wisdom has made me realize that I might not be quite ready for motherhood just yet.

Being a housewife has its perks, don’t get me wrong. There’s something fulfilling about managing a home and being there for your family. But it’s also been a bit of a rollercoaster. I used to love the routine and the feeling of earning my own money. My husband is a gem and supports me in every way, from letting me indulge in shopping sprees to treating myself on Shopee. Yet, there’s something missing – that personal sense of achievement from earning my own paycheck.

The career I had was more than just a job; it was a source of purpose and independence for me. It wasn’t just about the money, but the confidence and fulfillment that came with it. So now, I’m thinking about whether going back to work might help me find that balance and fulfillment again.

I’m going to take some time to weigh my options and figure out what’s next. I’ll definitely keep you all updated on what I decide to do.

Until Next Time,

' Ain

Finding Light in Darkness

 Hi There,

 

It has been a long time since I last wrote. Recently, I experienced another personal challenge which I find difficult to discuss in detail. This trial has made it very hard for me to navigate life, but I believe it is simply a test from Allah. Despite the hardship, I trust that these experiences are strengthening me. I often question why these struggles seem to affect me and my family more than others, but I remain confident in the wisdom behind them. Through it all, I strive to grow stronger and more resilient.

To all who facing difficulties, please stay strong in the face of adversity. Remember, Allah does not abandon us. Instead, He guides us through our challenges out of love and a desire for us to grow into better individuals. These trials are opportunities to strengthen our faith and to draw closer to Him. Trust that every challenge is a chance to become stronger and closer to Allah.

 

Until Next Time,

‘ Ain